move along

is it time to move on?

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i am not a designer

obviously?

am i?

then what am i doing now?

what is my calling?

*confusement & bit un-confidence mood is on*

;p

Red Nose

well, i'm not Rudolplh the Red Nosed Reindeer,

but i do have a running red nose haha + coughing + light migran hehehe...

~meler mulu niey~

you've done it again

It was just last Wednesday (26/09) I completely lost my voice. I woke up in the morning with a rusky throat, heaviness in my body, struggling to wake up and go to work. I thought it was just a "morning symptom” where everyone’s voices become heavier. But as the day pass, sun was rising down, it was still like that. I was struggling to talk.

One think on my mind “O Lord, I’m going to sing this Saturday & Sunday. What am I supposed to do? Help me God”. I quickly went to the clinic as my body weakening. Asking for medicine, yet at the same time believing that God’s healing will come through before Saturday & Sunday. I still believe in miracles, He is still the same God yesterday, today & forever. And I still believe it can happened tomorrow.

Yet it didn’t

Thursday was even worse. Not only voice, but I lost my strength. My body was weakening again and had a light fever. My eyes was blur, my head was spinning as if I’m going to fall in a few minutes time.

I keep on praying and it was just a simple prayer

“Lord, I know you’ll heal me! I know I’ll be alrite and I know it’s going to be a testimony. It’s not about my performance; it’s about your healing that is real for me! And even if I can’t sing, I will sing forever in my heart for you! I will sing forever and ever and ever!”

I felt peace and little bit of strength to continue my work

As the morning pass by, noon comes, my body was weakening again and I knew I can’t hold any longer. Thank God for His favor, my lecture allowed me to take MC and just rest. So I did.

I went home, resting for the rest of the day.

The next day, I felt better. And praise God, I can hear my voice! Yay! And when people ask me about tomorrow & Sunday, I said to them confidently “don’t worry! I’ll be alrite! By God’s grace!”. True enough, he helped me to lead worship for the LUCT CF. God is so good!

Saturday,
All glory be to God who hears our prayer, even the simplest prayer. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well (James 5:15). Holding on to God’s word, I went to the Blook Grand Re-opening show and I sang. Praise God! All glory be unto God! I did it! No! He did it again! He helped my not with my strength but His spirit has helped me to sing to the best of me and all praises that people gave me, I return back to you Lord. Coz it wasn’t me, it was you all along. People say I sang like the original CD, but I know it was God.

Sunday,
Even at this day, the Family day, the day that the Lord has made and we all glad and rejoice in it. I was able to sing in choir & during the Acts Kids performance. They say I’ve done it well. Praise God! If only they knew it was God all along, it wasn’t me!

That’s why I want to share this so much coz I know it was Him not me.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight

Proverbs 3:5-6

God is good all the time and all the time He is always good :)